Yahweh- Yireh

I have decided to fulfill a previous commitment!!! Reading the whole bible cover to cover in one year (I'm trying for less!!!!) and when I started in Genesis I found this very interesting and something amazing...


YAHWEH-YIREH

this simply (yet completely awesomely means: "the LORD will provide"


I find myself so many times being a hypocrite...

I always say that I trust the Lord 100%, that I have complete faith in Him, and I give my all...

Yet I hold some things from Him, saying that I'll handle this one.. you probably couldn't understand.... (Oh how very wrong I am!) In the back of my mind I know that He has control over all things, but I try to "keep Him out of it" I selfishly cling to my way, as if it's the only way. I basically make His story about me....

It doesn't work that way, but God says ok... if you wanna control it then fine, I'll step back and see you soon! He knows that I'll fail because my way isn't the right way and it ends up getting me no where...

Later on when I'm broken, shattered, and hurt I come to Him. I humble myself at His feet and admit defeat, I was wrong. He knows this already and He's always been at my side, He never left, but I ignored Him....

The awesome thing here is something amazing happens, He's been waiting with open arms waiting for me to return... He is loving and wants the best for me, we start back at square one, but not with a heavy heart, but with a loving saviour who forgives.. He tells me to move forward and don't ever look back...

It is so easy to look at the past and regret and feel lost, but God never gives up on us. He is a loving and amazing creator who always will leave the 99 to find the 1. Nothing is impossible for Him and even through Him. He makes us whole again, "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me" Philippians 4:13

We are saved and forgiven throughout he blood of our saviour! He loves us so much that He sent His one and only son to die on the cross so that our sins can be forgiven and we can be in heaven with Him! I can't imagine sacrificing that much, I couldn't fathom all that Jesus did for me, right down to His last breath on the cross....

"For God so loved the world that he gave His one and only son so that all who believe in Him shall not perish but have everlasting life" John 3:16


It's mind blowing to think that someone could care so much....

As I sit here now, with the knowledge that I know I can't help but want to scream Yahweh- Yireh!!!

A great song that talks about this is "let go" by barlow girl :)

"Abraham named the place Yahweh-Yireh (which means "the LORD will provide")." Genesis 22:14 NLT


~anissa

thoughts, thinking, and other stuff...

12:18 PM Posted by anissa 1 comments
Ok, before I start this post, I'm going to say that it might not all make sense, but I feel as though I need to get this out.....




I have begun to have a hard heart towards something... Lately I have found myself not wanting to talk to my mom and even see her for visitation. I kinda have begun expecting to get let down by her and just to not get excited or expect anything to happen with her....


I know that sounds bad that I have had a hard heart towards her and it's definitely something I'm struggling with, it feels wrong not to want to pursue a relationship. I mean, it's my mom...

This has always been really hard and seems like it's impossible to have a true relationship with her.... I've prayed asking if I am just to "cut myself off" from her or give it 100% It seems like every time I try to pursue it I just end up getting hurt and hurting the ones I love and that are here for me... In some cases I'm still dealing with hurt feelings, and I don't think things will ever be the same....

Recently she decided after months of planning and promises that she wasn't coming out to see us the day before she was supposed to come... My sister was terribly disappointed, but I felt numb. I guess deep down it hurts but I've kinda given up. It's hard, and currently I don't know any other way to turn, but away....

Hopefully things will be revealed to me soon! There is a reason for what is happening and I'm sure it's bigger than me, I'll just continue to trust in God and pray!!!

~anissa