Romans 8:38 {anissa's blog}

Wow! It's been wayyyy too long since my last blog! I have had so many thoughts to write down, but I haven't done it. So here goes....

I take too many things for granted everyday. Waking up in the morning, being able to sleep in a bed I can call my own, seeing my family, the beautiful California days, my goofy puppy, being able to do schoolwork in the comfort of my home, being homeschooled, having a job (even if I don't like it..), having amazing friends, having an amazing church, God, breathing, being able to take a warm shower, and this list could probably go on forever!!!!

So I figured I'd take the time to thank some people for the great things that they've done for me and wonderful memories :))

Jesus: thank you for EVERYTHING!!! I love that I can come to you and be loved and I love that I can call you my Father!! Thank you for being my ultimate superhero! :D I love you!!!


Mama (sandy): Thank you for homeschooling me! It was probably one of the best things that has ever happened to me! I love the spontaneous fun trips that we do, even if it's simply going to the post office ;) There are soooo many things that I could list off, so thank you for being an amazing mom!!! Thank you for being one amazing superhero! I love you!!

Daddy: One of my favorite memories with you was when I got you all to myself for a day for my birthday! I love that you were a good sport and did what I wanted ;p It was one of the coolest things ever! I also love the times where we can sit and watch a movie together, and love when i wake up in the morning hearing the clack of your fingers on the keyboard. Thank you for being one of my superheroes!! I love you!!

Grandpa: It was a blast getting to see you in Hawaii! :) I would do it again in a heartbeat! One of my favorite things to do with you is to go on adventures, even if it's going for a morning walk! :) I love that we can always laugh and have a good time! I love that you have a huge heart for God and that you are a pastor! It is amazing getting to hear you preach! (it was definitely a treat to hear you in Hawaii) Thank you for being my superhero!! I love you!!

Grandma: I also loved seeing you in Hawaii!! :) I love that you are all around an awesome woman! I look up to you and hope to become such a godly example! And I might mention that I'm very thankful for your amazing culinary skills! ;) Thank you for being an awesome superhero!! I love you!!

There are sooooooooooo many more people that I could add to this list!! I'm constantly reminded of how much I am blessed!!! Just know that even if your not up there your love and memories are in my heart!!! Thank YOU for being my superhero!! I love you!!!! :DDD

God is good, all the time!


~anissa

I have decided to fulfill a previous commitment!!! Reading the whole bible cover to cover in one year (I'm trying for less!!!!) and when I started in Genesis I found this very interesting and something amazing...


YAHWEH-YIREH

this simply (yet completely awesomely means: "the LORD will provide"


I find myself so many times being a hypocrite...

I always say that I trust the Lord 100%, that I have complete faith in Him, and I give my all...

Yet I hold some things from Him, saying that I'll handle this one.. you probably couldn't understand.... (Oh how very wrong I am!) In the back of my mind I know that He has control over all things, but I try to "keep Him out of it" I selfishly cling to my way, as if it's the only way. I basically make His story about me....

It doesn't work that way, but God says ok... if you wanna control it then fine, I'll step back and see you soon! He knows that I'll fail because my way isn't the right way and it ends up getting me no where...

Later on when I'm broken, shattered, and hurt I come to Him. I humble myself at His feet and admit defeat, I was wrong. He knows this already and He's always been at my side, He never left, but I ignored Him....

The awesome thing here is something amazing happens, He's been waiting with open arms waiting for me to return... He is loving and wants the best for me, we start back at square one, but not with a heavy heart, but with a loving saviour who forgives.. He tells me to move forward and don't ever look back...

It is so easy to look at the past and regret and feel lost, but God never gives up on us. He is a loving and amazing creator who always will leave the 99 to find the 1. Nothing is impossible for Him and even through Him. He makes us whole again, "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me" Philippians 4:13

We are saved and forgiven throughout he blood of our saviour! He loves us so much that He sent His one and only son to die on the cross so that our sins can be forgiven and we can be in heaven with Him! I can't imagine sacrificing that much, I couldn't fathom all that Jesus did for me, right down to His last breath on the cross....

"For God so loved the world that he gave His one and only son so that all who believe in Him shall not perish but have everlasting life" John 3:16


It's mind blowing to think that someone could care so much....

As I sit here now, with the knowledge that I know I can't help but want to scream Yahweh- Yireh!!!

A great song that talks about this is "let go" by barlow girl :)

"Abraham named the place Yahweh-Yireh (which means "the LORD will provide")." Genesis 22:14 NLT


~anissa

Ok, before I start this post, I'm going to say that it might not all make sense, but I feel as though I need to get this out.....




I have begun to have a hard heart towards something... Lately I have found myself not wanting to talk to my mom and even see her for visitation. I kinda have begun expecting to get let down by her and just to not get excited or expect anything to happen with her....


I know that sounds bad that I have had a hard heart towards her and it's definitely something I'm struggling with, it feels wrong not to want to pursue a relationship. I mean, it's my mom...

This has always been really hard and seems like it's impossible to have a true relationship with her.... I've prayed asking if I am just to "cut myself off" from her or give it 100% It seems like every time I try to pursue it I just end up getting hurt and hurting the ones I love and that are here for me... In some cases I'm still dealing with hurt feelings, and I don't think things will ever be the same....

Recently she decided after months of planning and promises that she wasn't coming out to see us the day before she was supposed to come... My sister was terribly disappointed, but I felt numb. I guess deep down it hurts but I've kinda given up. It's hard, and currently I don't know any other way to turn, but away....

Hopefully things will be revealed to me soon! There is a reason for what is happening and I'm sure it's bigger than me, I'll just continue to trust in God and pray!!!

~anissa

I am still at the crossroad of whether to stay at my job or find something more suited to my taste. I would rather work in a retail store or something of that nature. It is a struggle to figure out the answer so I am playing it day by day.

I went hunting twice now (for deer). We were unsuccessful both times but we had a lot of fun and enjoyed being outdoors. :) The second hunt went much better than the first and we ended up finding a new place to try next year! :) I also got a bunch of new pics while we were out!!!! I love photography and I never cease to be amazed by God's creation!!! There is no way this all happened by chance!!!

All is going well with life it is the typical school, homework, and hanging out at the house or with friends. Nothing exciting has really happened recently, which is okay with me. No news is good news... ;)

I am excited about celebrating Thanksgiving, Jenna's birthday, and Christmas soon enough!!! :D

~anissa

I work at Taco Bell which isn't my favorite place.... I have been discouraged lately about the job and just waiting to get fired or quit, well that hasn't been the case...

I got called by work yesterday and I missed the call, but I saw they had left a message, I thought to myself what could it be, I'm not supposed to be into work until 4, and they had called around 2-ish... I was thinking to myself, is this it, are they finally coming to the end.... are they going to fire me....

.... Nope they had called because they wanted me to go into work early, reluctantly I got on my work clothes and went in at 2:30. I sat in the car thinking, great *sarcasm* another 6 hour day at work.... I almost had wished it would have been them calling to fire me....


I went into work and immediately go t started working, they put me in the the front (walk up) I wasn't super excited about this, but I did my job anyway. Next they decided to make me do drive thru (training), making and cutting pizza's and going and getting whatever else they needed at the moment... my head was spinning, but i tried to keep up with the demand... I was tired and had a mild headache when I went to work, but it got worse as the day went on...

I was coming to the end of my rope and this wasn't helping at all, my boss was also upset that I took Halloween night off, but he gave it to me anyway...

Then something good came out of working front....

I met a little girl, I think she was 10 or 11 and she had come in with her family....

"Go ahead, tell her." whispered her little brother.

I kinda blew off that comment because they were toward the end of giving me their order. Then when her dad went to pay he said, "my daughter has the same name as you! You even spell it the same."

I asked, "How do you pronounce your name?" I asked this because I know of people that have the same name as me, but they pronounce it with an "e" instead of an "i".

She replied, with a smile on her face, "Anissa (with an "i")".

I was smiling at this point, "Me 2!"

She said, "I have never met anyone with my name before!"

"It's an awesome name" I replied.

She quickly interjected, "yes! it is!" and walked away with a smile on her face. :)

Later on that day while I was cleaning tables in the front, I got to witness something extrodinary....

A man came in and ordered his lunch and sat down to eat....

Later another man came in and bought his lunch and sat down to eat at a different table....

The first man that came in went over and sat down with the second man that came in and began a relationship and started witnessing to him! :) He decided to take the time to walk across the room and share his faith! Toward the end of their conversation the other man gave his life to christ!!!!! :D It was so uplifting! He invited the man to go to his church and wrote down all his contact information. The man who shared his faith also helped as a pastor to a youth group and so the other man's kids could have a place to go as well! :) It was truly an act of God and it was encouraging!!!! :)

Later on in the day my coworkers, who haven't been very pleasant, we telling me that I was a fast learner, a great worker, and good at my job! I got compliments from customers, and was uplifted further! Even though my legs were sore, my head hurt, I was tired, I was hungry, GOd showed me a light in the darkness!

I think these events were a way of God telling me not to be discouraged, he's not done with me yet! I think he is going to use me in a big way there and I just need to focus more on Him and be more positive about things, I shouldn't just give up because I am discouraged. I may have one plan, but He has another! I am anxious and excited to see how He is going to use me to further his kingdom!!!! I thank Him for all my blessings and those to come!!!!! :) He is awesome!!!!! A couple of verses that i am reminded of to help me through my discouragement are.....

"Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up." Galatians 6:9

"Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God." Psalm 42:5-6

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11


~anissa <3

Ok, I know, I know... It's been a long time since I have blogged..... I like to read other people's blogs though, they are very interesting, I am soooo far behind.... I have had some amazing things happen thorough Christ and i should have taken the time to blog, I am giving no excuses...

I went to the revolve tour this last weekend and was greatly moved by the speakers there, they all shared a similar story to my struggles and I felt like I could relate. It was a reassuring feeling knowing that they had family struggles and yet they still came out amazing and they are touching so many lives and reaching out to so many people through the glory of God. I found this to be very encouraging and I congratulate them all for the work they are doing, it is truly AMAZING!!!!

More news:

So far so good, I haven't had any accidents while driving (thank God!!!!) Although I have a had a couple near ones, HE is definitely watching over me and protecting me!!!!

I finally got ahold of the Prom pictures from school last year!!! YAY!!!!! :) And here they are!!!! (see above post)

School is going well it is still weird to think that I am a senior this year! I am working at Taco Bell, which is it's own mess.....

I have been blessed so much by the Lord and He has given me so much more than I deserve and I hope and pray that I become more like his son in all that I do!!!! How great is our God.... <3


~anissa :)

I am so excited!!! VBS starts next week, on the 10!!! We are doing a Dr. Seuss theme this year. :) My group is the "Sam-I-Am's", they are mostly 4th graders. It will be an interesting change for me; I taught 6th grade last year (VBS) which got me teaching Sunday school because I had so much fun!!! :) (We did an Indiana Jones theme last year :)


I started decorating my classroom today and I can't wait! It is really starting to come together, which is AwEsOmE!!!!!! :) I am excited to see how God works in the hearts of these children and I hope they grow in a stronger relationship with him!!! (Especially if that means starting one!) I hope that I can come to grow in a relationship with the kids and also that I could decrease so God can increase and make a lasting impact on their lives!!! One of the coolest things to me is when a child (or anyone) makes the choice to follow God and/or get baptized. Last year I was able to be a part of the amazing process of three children that decided to do so!!!!!!! I couldn't have been more on fire for Jesus as was then!!! I also couldn't have been prouder of the children!!!! :)

I pray that God gives me wisdom through the coming weeks and even after that. In the hope that I can be used to expand his kingdom, and impact so many lives!!!!!!!!!

~anissa :D